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After two decades in the industry, what once felt like a blessing now leaves me torn between professional achievements and personal sacrifices. The last eight years have been a struggle, as I've missed key moments in life, questioning the worth of it all. Despite seeking guidance from above, the relentless demands and exploitation within the industry have left me exhausted. It's a constant battle between valuing my accomplishments and grappling with what I've lost along the way.